why i love him...
there's this guy that i super duper love.. i really don't know why... i met him when we were in gradeschool (come to think of it... i'm already 25 years old and yet, i'm still talking about him). back to the story, we were classmates in grade 6 and he admitted that he had a crush on me at that time. i also had a crush on him but since we were still young then, i just let my feelings pass, thinking it was just some kind of a usual puppy love that will come and go. i admit, i was really happy to go to school then. he's so funny, he made me laugh and at the age of 11, i feel so special... there's the feeling of security that no matter what, i know i have him by my side. sadly though, things change and people do. after gradeschool graduation, we parted ways... went to different schools and we did not have the chance to talk. anyways, what do you expect, we were so young then. and i really don't know if the feeling was mutual.
and then, some time in college, my gradeshool friends decided to have a get-together. i was very eager to join them, of course, i'm expecting that i will see him there too. but truly, unexpected things do happen. yes, he was there... but he was with his girlfriend who happened to be one of our batchmates as well. i was so hurt!!! and since no one from my friends know how i feel for him, i just kept the ache all by myself (talk about being a masochist!). after that incident, i realized that i just don't have a crush on him.. i really love him indeed!
since i cannot keep it anymore, i eventually shared to some of my friends how i feel for him. they were somehow shocked to know that i fell for him. and since i love him that much, i find ways to be close to him. first, i tried to ask for his number, hoping that texting or sending him messages will bring back the old flame. unfortunately and obviously, it did not! we really havent had the chance to communicate and then he changed numbers... i stopped texting him from then on.
and being a courageous person that i am, i searched for his account on one of the online groups, and then i sent him a message. on that message, i confessed how i feel for him. told him that i do not expect anything and that i just want to express how i feel. i just don't wanna be bothered with "what ifs" and "could have beens" that's why i sent him the message. and being the conceited beast that he is, he told my friends about my so-called confession. so now, all my friends knew that i love him. i really hate what he did! he's so conceited... so arrogant!
after i learned that he told about it to my friends, i again sent him a message. this time, i told him how arrogant and conceited he was. i was really so upset and frustrated! fortunately, he replied to my message. he said sorry if he somehow offended me. honestly, i was happy to hear that from him. but i did not bother to reply anymore. i told myself that its already over! i really need to let go of him, to move on, and to go on with my life...
there's this guy that i super duper love.. i really don't know why... i met him when we were in gradeschool (come to think of it... i'm already 25 years old and yet, i'm still talking about him). back to the story, we were classmates in grade 6 and he admitted that he had a crush on me at that time. i also had a crush on him but since we were still young then, i just let my feelings pass, thinking it was just some kind of a usual puppy love that will come and go. i admit, i was really happy to go to school then. he's so funny, he made me laugh and at the age of 11, i feel so special... there's the feeling of security that no matter what, i know i have him by my side. sadly though, things change and people do. after gradeschool graduation, we parted ways... went to different schools and we did not have the chance to talk. anyways, what do you expect, we were so young then. and i really don't know if the feeling was mutual.
and then, some time in college, my gradeshool friends decided to have a get-together. i was very eager to join them, of course, i'm expecting that i will see him there too. but truly, unexpected things do happen. yes, he was there... but he was with his girlfriend who happened to be one of our batchmates as well. i was so hurt!!! and since no one from my friends know how i feel for him, i just kept the ache all by myself (talk about being a masochist!). after that incident, i realized that i just don't have a crush on him.. i really love him indeed!
since i cannot keep it anymore, i eventually shared to some of my friends how i feel for him. they were somehow shocked to know that i fell for him. and since i love him that much, i find ways to be close to him. first, i tried to ask for his number, hoping that texting or sending him messages will bring back the old flame. unfortunately and obviously, it did not! we really havent had the chance to communicate and then he changed numbers... i stopped texting him from then on.
and being a courageous person that i am, i searched for his account on one of the online groups, and then i sent him a message. on that message, i confessed how i feel for him. told him that i do not expect anything and that i just want to express how i feel. i just don't wanna be bothered with "what ifs" and "could have beens" that's why i sent him the message. and being the conceited beast that he is, he told my friends about my so-called confession. so now, all my friends knew that i love him. i really hate what he did! he's so conceited... so arrogant!
after i learned that he told about it to my friends, i again sent him a message. this time, i told him how arrogant and conceited he was. i was really so upset and frustrated! fortunately, he replied to my message. he said sorry if he somehow offended me. honestly, i was happy to hear that from him. but i did not bother to reply anymore. i told myself that its already over! i really need to let go of him, to move on, and to go on with my life...
to be continued...
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